Ending the school year!

Each year as school comes to an end I always go into reflect mode.  I look back on the moments that have made me laugh.  The moments that have made me cry, The moments of frustration.  Mostly, I reflect upon how I can be better.  This year I am reflection on my career choice.  I have been going through this turmoil all year.   I have asked myself all year, "What else can I do with my life?"  I know in school they tell you that the first 2 years are the hardest and if you can get through year  everything else would be a breeze.  Well, they sold a bag of wolf tickets on this one.  I find that I go through this crisis every 3-4 years.  My current school is the longest I have been in any one place. So, I think this has made this feeling magnify.  It has been the mos discouraging.  As a Gemini, I find that I need constant newness.  I need to be in a constant state of change.  So, the sedentary nature of this is hard for me.  The oxymoron is that I need to have a sense of security as well.  These two notions are completely contradictory.  No wonder I am so screwed up.  This compound is magnified by the fact that I never feel like a I do my job well, I always feel like I fall short.  On one hand this is a good thing, but on the other had it is very stressful.  It can be good to always fall short because it drives me to want to be better and work harder to be better.  However, this also places me in a constant state of panic because I always think I am on step from loosing my job which jeopardizes my need of security.  No wonder I have high blood pressure (well, that's one reason).  It's a wonder I haven't had a stroke.  
As I look around and see everyone making decision and changes in their life and careers all I can think about is my goals and plans for the future.  This year, I am truly thinking about what I want for the rest of my life.  Where do I see myself.  Overall, I still love teaching but I want more.  Now, it is up to me to figure out what that more is.